Saturday, July 31, 2010
Saturday blues...
So here iam in my room, feeling grumpy because my week end is coming to an end. I seriously would love a vacation. To tell you the truth I don’t know the last time I had a vacation. Well for ther past four years I have been working my ass off yet I am neither satisfied nor feel a sense of achievement. The only breaks I took were for 2 of my exams and for my lasik surgery at India. You can’t call that a vacation especially when you are stuck in a room till you recover.
Any how its 0517hrs at evening and im thinking of doing some shopping before i attend my classes tonight. Its amazing how time flies by just like that, if only we had a remote to pause, rewind or in some situations fast forward some moments in our life.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Announcement of your death on TV, Just a thought
I was watching TV the other day and I suddenly saw the typical announcement from a family since one of there loved ones passed away. The first thought that came to my mind was “wow… someday they are going to announce my death too, just like everyone else’s” and I guessed how people’s reactions would be “oh ... She died, that’s sad she was a nice person” and they move on with their daily lives.
U say it best wen u say nothing at all
Sometimes its better to keep our mouths shut and let the things as it is. As my lecturer said last night. “People these days are too emotional”. People are getting angry and sad too fast. People get hurt too easily and these days you have to double check in your brain before saying the politically correct words. Phew...
“The current generation is all about their feelings”
If we don’t show our emotions who would know how we feel about things. If we are happy, angry or sad about something we should talk about it. Well that’s my opinion. I myself don’t really show my emotions in front of many people. But I blog from time to time. It helps me to clear my mind and thoughts without disturbing any one or getting on their nerves. Well I try my best not to get on anyone’s nerves, but these days I get bit over the top.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
New day new things happening
For a change my supervisor is in a good mood today. Now thats good right
Me and my mom had a litle talk in the morning. Appearantly someone told my mom that im getting married soon before i broke her the news. Who is that suprise killer, i wonder? But thanks any how you made my day easy. But next time dont poke your nose into my personal life unless you are asked to. Seriously u killed the suprise and made my mom upset because i didnt tell her before. But im glad she already knows.
Better get home soon so i can get ready and hit the gym after few months. Need to burn some calories and afterwards got to attend my classes.
Bye for now......
Me and my mom had a litle talk in the morning. Appearantly someone told my mom that im getting married soon before i broke her the news. Who is that suprise killer, i wonder? But thanks any how you made my day easy. But next time dont poke your nose into my personal life unless you are asked to. Seriously u killed the suprise and made my mom upset because i didnt tell her before. But im glad she already knows.
Better get home soon so i can get ready and hit the gym after few months. Need to burn some calories and afterwards got to attend my classes.
Bye for now......
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
MIXED FEELINGS
Past few days I have been having these mixed feelings.
Frustrated/disappointed
I feel angry and disappointed at work, mostly because I’m not happy by the way things are going. I had so many expectations by joining a very well known organization. I actually left my previous employer since I have always wanted to be part of the organization. But soon after I joined I the reality hit the fan. There was no proper orientation, they started judging you before you have settled down, no matter how hard you work even though it is out of your JD but they rarely say thanks or recognized the hard work. and to make things worse they just smile when they see each other and back bite when they are not around.
Nervous/anxious
My final semester has just begun, and this semester is going to be tough, especially Business Law as they say. And I’m really nervous about my previous semester results. I know I tried my level best given that my office approved 5 days of leave to prepare for the exam since there was a staff shortage. The exam went kind of rough specially economics since they changed the structure of the usually easy paper by not including any question which requires calculation. That is how usually the students escaped in previous semesters. Any how, I really hope for the best, and please wish me good luck. May god be with me.
Happy/Excited
And coming to my personal life, I have good news. Insha Allah I’ll hopefully be married soon. Which is like very soon. We got engaged on my love’s bday. It was the sweetest moment in my life. After going out to a dinner to celebrate his bday, and after coming back to my place suddenly he got to his knees and proposed with the most beautiful ring iv ever seen. And to tell you the truth he is the kindest and most caring person to be with, I love the fact that he has got manners, takes life seriously and works hard to achieve his goals. I’m glad that finally I met one who loves me for who I am and im glad he is there for me when ever I need him.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
My recurring nightmare
Last night I had that same dream again. I saw u standing near my bed. Watching me with those dark eyes without a blink. I felt your presence I knew you where there. I dared to open my eyes. It was too surreal. I felt drawn back to my dream again. And again I saw you. I was following you to the same that place that you took me to.
It was June 2006, me and friends went on an overnight trip to a picnic island in Male’ atoll. It was dusk and we went to gather the firewood to bbq the delicious catch of the day. Since it was around 630 I knew our group we were the only people n that particular island. Me and friend decided to hide from the rest of the group to have a smoke. Since the rest of crowd didn’t know of our habit we went straight into the woods. We found a perfect spot . It had already started getting dark but we didn’t mind, we were smoking and engaged in this meaningless conversation. All of a sudden we heard a cry in agony
It was coming behind from us. We pretended not to be scared. Me “You heard that?” my friend“nahh, must be nuthin” me"probably"
Later that night, after dinner we were in our sleeping bags. Cold, fresh salty breezes were coming from the sea. Making me sleepier and sleepier. Its times like this that we miss while living in Male'. Anyways i was fast asleep. I felt someone tugging on my sleeping bag. I open my eyes. To my surprise standing near the foot of my sleeping bag was a small kid. around 3 feet tall. a boy. Because it was bit dark i couldn’t see his face clearly, I wondered if any of my friends brought their kid and why is he roaming around in the middle of the night without any supervision. Why is he distracting my sleep. “What’s up kid?” yet he stood their without a mumble. Then he started walking, towards the beach. I decided not to bother. Too darn sleepy. But wait what if he drowns what if he gets lost. Will I forgive my self? I suddenly got up to my feet and started following him. What I saw next, changed my life forever.....
To be continued...
Sunday, July 11, 2010
AN ANGRY THOUGHT
KAMEH NEYGIGEN INGEY MEEHA KAIRY EHEEMA ANANY RULHI.ITHURU BAHANA NUDHAKKA KURI SUVAALUGE JAVAABU DHINIYYA EMMENGE VAGUTHU SALAIMAI VAANE NOONTHA?
Just get over it
Within last few months my i have gained extra kgs. Im not over weight, actually my BMI is normal for a person who is 5’3 but still i don't like the extra attention i get from this weight gain good n bad especially from people who should get on with their own lifes. People keep telling me that I have gained weight as if i don't know. cummon its my own body who else could understand it better than me. It’s like someone else telling you how many teeth you have in your mouth. Kind of annoying. Maybe some are concerned or maybe they thought they just found a loop hole.
So for people who keep asking me why I have started to gain weight here are the reasons take your pick
a. I have never been happier, Iam with the most kind and caring person a girl could find. (previously I was in a kind of abusive relationship, you know that kind of guy you want to stay away from)
b. I did personal training on my first semester break, I had to quit because it clashes with my 2nd sem classes and when I stopped suddenly I started gaining weight. Hoping to join after get the timings on this semester; D
c. I have actually started to eat healthy, at least 3 meals per day
So for people who keeps bugging me about about the recent changes, just get over it
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