MIXED FEELINGS

Past few days I have been having these mixed feelings.

Frustrated/disappointed

I feel angry and disappointed at work, mostly because I’m not happy by the way things are going. I had so many expectations by joining a very well known organization. I actually left my previous employer since I have always wanted to be part of the organization. But soon after I joined I the reality hit the fan. There was no proper orientation, they started judging you before you have settled down, no matter how hard you work even though it is out of your JD but they rarely say thanks or recognized the hard work. and to make things worse they just smile when they see each other and back bite when they are not around.

Nervous/anxious

My final semester has just begun, and this semester is going to be tough, especially Business Law as they say. And I’m really nervous about my previous semester results. I know I tried my level best given that my office approved 5 days of leave to prepare for the exam since there was a staff shortage. The exam went kind of rough specially economics since they changed the structure of the usually easy paper by not including any question which requires calculation. That is how usually the students escaped in previous semesters. Any how, I really hope for the best, and please wish me good luck. May god be with me.

Happy/Excited

And coming to my personal life, I have good news. Insha Allah I’ll hopefully be married soon. Which is like very soon. We got engaged on my love’s bday. It was the sweetest moment in my life. After going out to a dinner to celebrate his bday, and after coming back to my place suddenly he got to his knees and proposed with the most beautiful ring iv ever seen. And to tell you the truth he is the kindest and most caring person to be with, I love the fact that he has got manners, takes life seriously and works hard to achieve his goals. I’m glad that finally I met one who loves me for who I am and im glad he is there for me when ever I need him.